Beginnings and Endings

So lots of things have begun and ended for me lately.

At the beginning of the year I threw my whole life off by leaving school and coming home. It was absolutely the right decision for me but it was really hard to make at the time. Since then I've worried about my future a lot. How I was going to have money to live on and where I'd go from there. I figured it out for the most part but I hate transitions.

I've never been good at them. Leaving high school was really hard. Deciding where to go to college and then not to go and to work instead was hard. This was just another transition I was destined to make. I'm going to Rockford College in the fall but I have to say, I'm not so sure how I feel about it. Hopeful, I guess. Concerned. The upcoming season has one comedy, two musicals and a Shakespeare... only one of which I would ever dream about auditioning for... and I'm a theater major. Bummer.

I've been teaching job skills classes for the last two weeks. I start my last class tomorrow and that will last for nine days. It's been great and extremely taxing at the same time. I know that I need to do something with my life that will help others or make a difference, that's how I stay motivated. This has let me do that but when I get home after working for 6.5 hours, I'm completely exhausted. It's just a hard balance to figure out. I'm extremely thankful for being blessed with this opportunity to make a difference (along with the money I was in need of) but I'm pretty okay with saying goodbye after the next two weeks are over.

Gardening has been great for me. I love planting seeds or small plants and watching them grow. Unfortunately the rabbits and little bugs that hang out in the neighborhood don't really care about the satisfaction that I get from the plants staying alive and hole-less. I just like knowing that when I put the work in, I'll see the results. It's very gratifying.

So now I'll just wrap up the next two weeks and hang out until school starts. I'm hoping to buy a bike and that will give me something to do and help me get into shape. I'll keep gardening and hopefully solve my pest problem. I'll read some great books. Hopefully get to see my friends and spend some time with them. We'll see what else.